a world thats not your own!!

mhmm this week enoughs happened since tuesday! a couple of arguements but i still dont think the person gets the idea i dont want him meddling in my friendships because its twisting it n causing problems! im not gonna say any more though.
thursday was a very hard evening it talked about hurt and that. i dont see how writing it down and throwing it away helps not with some of the hurt many of us will have faced. god knows whats on our hearts and he's helping us over come it but that hurt has been done the damage is there, it takes time to heal.
friday wasnt an interestin day i sat and finished my book it was about ww2 man the citizens of poland didnt half go through hell, it was quite a touching book.
on saturday i went to naomi's for a bbq. no one she invited turned up bless her, apparently the weather was bad, i didnt think so it was dry to say the least. i hope she had fun i know i enjoyed it. always next time! we did go to the field but some guys from our year had bb guns and were aiming them very near to us so in the end we went to jaynes and some people went on the tranpoline. it was a relaxing good day. after we made our way back to naomis and sat talking. this one person really doesnt know what to do about this guy that fancies her i hope it doesnt bother her too much. all us headed home at 10.
so today then. i heard some interesting things from one friend this morning but i think it may be best if i dont act against it. church seemed extremely full too. i had a card and present off the girls, ive attached it to my bible. the card was from jenny jessica, and adam. i helped out in sunday school but it was hard walking down stairs with three children attached lol. they were a bit noisy but i think they listened. basically this is all i can think of right now so i shall leave it at this.

I don’t know maybe it will be third time lucky! I think that shows how today is like, at least! I feel really odd and am starting to put myself down again, you know the usual kind of thing, why aren’t I pretty blah blah blah I know I can go and sort out what to wear for Naomi’s bbq that may cheer me up!
Anyway this is about yesterday so here we go…………..

Morning:- i woke up at 8 which is fairly good considering i wanted a lie in. had my pressies of my bro and parents then elin came round at 10.30. we went to naomis for 11 and called for hollie. for the rest of the morning we sat on the field talking and reading, whilst elin and naomi did drama!


Afternoon:- We had to walk up to the school for a wbq lesson which was pointless as we had already heard that kind of information, but it was only an hour so it didnt hurt. on my way out of school i saw my teacher i would have last lesson so i had to tell her i wont be in. she didnt mind at all. we all headed straight into town where we picked up some sweets for the evening and called for laura. luara stayed with us througout the afternoon but sadly she could not come bowling in the evening. we made our way to the park near the pier and sat on a hill under the tree. it was an extremelly hot day but it was good. after hanging out at the park and messing round we made our way into town for a meal. basically the afternoon consisted of 5 of my best girlie friends. i am sooo glad they all came.

Evening:- in the evening it was naomi elin hollie louise rachel (for bits of it) will matthew mathew dan andrew tom and of course me. it started off with jaffa. in jaffa we did adisplay of the sea and played some games, they were quite noisy today. from jaffa we made our way over to atlantic warf for bowling. whilst there i opened other pressies. tom won the game with 144. i have no clue where i came i wasnt really bothered with the game, i have some more photos too. the guys were obsessed with their posing!! when collecting our shoes a load of us picked up some face paints and started attacking each other. lol they didnt half have some odd looks.

my pressies:- (saves me trying to remember!)
Nano:- Photo album, and badge
Elin:- slides and teddy!
Hollie:- mug and sweets
Laura:- bath set
Will:- bookmark, and some china pieces with lush sayings.
Dan:- a photo frame
Matthew:- box of chocies and candles
Mum dad brother:- books, cd's candles clothes flowers
other:- money

i really did have a nice birthday it was sooo much fun.
thank you every1 for such a great day and thanks all for the cards a special thanxs for rachel who transported the boys around!

ok maybe yesterdays entry was just me freaking out about it all, im sure things WILL work out , if i dont have more than 6 deffinates by tomorow i'll book 1 lane or ask do they just want to hang out as its cheaper lol. so today i havent been feeling good, nor the rest of the weekend but i kinda revised. one exam to go and i can relax, maybe do a bit of reading!
todays been such a lovely day, i helped out in sunday school and isabel did another picture for me! its on the wall but i think im slowly running out of space. in sunday school we did 1 samual 3-4. it was good apart from them being really noisy i hope they are quiter next week for us! i revised this afterrnoon but i hope i'll be ok. then this evening i went to the service, it was about the things we say which was interesting and how what others say affects us. this week i fellt i needed to forgive someone who ive hated for a while, i relised that when sitting in an exam and noticing him, but yeh tonight confirmed th thoughts i have and hopefully i have forgiven him. before the service adam came up to me and spoke which was nice as i dont exactly speak to him, oh and i had andrew infront of me and tom in the row behind naomi and laura werent there. Jenny came up and sat by me lol so i wasnt alone, anyway right now they will all be at the church watching the footie England vs France, i've come home have to try and revise plus im not a big fan of football and its better watching people you know. oh and i've had 2 birthday cards already!!! so yeh over all a good day and weekend for that matter!

well this is the reason why i HATE doing something for my birthday. to be honest i didnt even want to go out with the girls but since they wanted to i will, but then i aint gonna do that and not spend the evening without seeing other friends. i wish theyd just have let me not do anything, and i mean next yr i want to do NOTHING (well unless i think something will go right!) seriously something always messes up. this year it will be actually getting there, instead of going to the cinema which is easy to get to it's bowling, and i have no clue of how we're getting there, and im not calling mum or dad to take us either it isnt fair on them all the time. basically noone seems to know if a bus runs from penarth to atlantic warf and if we need to go to town first get a bus, or even if we will have to walk a little bit! we have no clue of times let alone who's coming its pointless maybe everything should be cancelled i'd rather do nothing at this rate no matter how fun it could be!!